Just a Glimpse

Sunset. Red was having a fight with blue and yellow as to whom should occupy the endless sky.

Vast. The sea was trying to be calm amidst the strong wind.

Cold. Warmth was being pushed away by the vicious coldness.

Gloomy. Happiness was trying its very best to overcome a stronger feeling named loneliness.

Me. I was at the middle of everything.

Me. I was watching as the sun sets.

Me. I was one with the sea as it tries to be calm.

Me. I was shivering as coldness drives warmth away.

Me. I was trying my VERY best to overcome this loneliness.

Why? Now I ask myself…

Why did I chose to be alone?

Why did I chose to be so far away from my friends?

Three years ago, I wanted to be far away from the city. Far from blinking lights, far from the noise, far from the busy streets, far from everything that would remind me of a stressful life. That was THREE YEARS AGO…

Now after three years of spending life here in the island of Palawan, I am asking myself was it worth everything?… A few days back my friends were here.  They had their time out of the city life and so they decided to pay me a visit.  It was a very, very short time… Three days… Three days of being together (again)… Three days of reminiscing… Three days of laughs… Three HAPPY DAYS!

Three days is already over… Now I look back to three years… And as I look back, memories played at the back of my mind… images were flashing… silence came… and then (unnoticed) tears falls down my face…

…tatlong araw lang pala ako naging maligaya di ko man lang napuna tatlong araw ko’y tapos na…

‘Twas just supposed to be an outlet of thoughts…
Thoughts I can’t verbalized…
Thoughts I just decided to put into writing…

All the while I thought, I would just be leaving things here which most probably are unread…
I never reckoned that people would bother to read a piece of my mind…

But to those ‘VERY FEW’ people who actually took time to read things here THANK YOU!

Whether you love it or hate it, it was really nice of you to drop by…
Those who thought that I have inspired them,
I would say that you have inspired me too!
You have inspired me to keep this blog alive…
You have inspired me to keep leaving things here…
You have inspired me to keep finding the right words to express my random thoughts…
You have inspired me to give you JUST A GLIMPSE!

Missed this moment… Missed writing something… Missed posting things on the net… Missed BLOGGING!

But I am not to worry ’bout it no more… ‘Coz once again people I AM BACK!  Haha… This past few days, (years to be exact!) I have been out of the ‘blog planet’… Too many deadlines… Too many work to finish… But now, I finally got the chance… So what’s the topic?

Uhmmm… Dunno…

People do say that it is hard to write something when you are happy…  I think they are correct…  ‘Coz I am currently having a hard time finding the right words to express what I want to put in here (actually I don’t have anything to put in here… that’s probably the reason…)

I was reading most of my blogs earlier and realized how much I missed blogging… But more than that it came to my senses that I have gone through a lot of things… And I am happy bout that… I am happy that I have gone through all those things… Glad that I was able to surpass most of them…

Hay, tama nga sila kapag masaya ka mahirap magsulat… So that’s it for now… Till my next post!  Pakialam ko ba kung walang bumasa… basta may sinusulat ako… Hehe… Mind exercise ko din yan eh…

Truly, life amazes me… =)

Well, after what seemed to be an era of silence, here goes another post…  Another piece of my mind to be left here, most probably unread…  But nonetheless, I would still leave this things here…  Be it read or unread…  This is how I feel…

Honestly, I really can’t think of anything to put in here…  I don’t know…  It seems all of a sudden I stopped thinking… Stopped learning… Stopped growing…  I feel so stucked up…  I feel all alone even if I am not…  I feel left behind even if I am soaring high…

Am I once again questioning my sanity? Nah!  Never again…  Never again will I lose this battle over myself!  I will have a stonger fight because I do know I have Someone by my side…  Yes, tears will still fall… Hearts will still break…  Sleepless nights will still come…  But I will survive them all!  (as I did many times!)

Faith… That will be my shield and LOVE will be my guide… For I will always believe!  I will never lose my spirit…  I will always dream of it and I will make my dream come true… Sounds like a fairytale to you?  Well, for me it’s not!  This is my reality!  And no matter how hard it is I would live life as it is!

Well, I guess I really can’t organize my thoughts now!  Don’t know why… (Basta napost ko ung gusto ko iparating!)

No matter how complicated life may be (as this blog is complicated)  I will live it…  I will celebrate it!

It was a year of moving on and letting go… A year of learning and growing…  A year of standing up and fighting for life… Truly, 2005 was full of tears, pains and trials. But ended in acceptance, joy and triumph…

2005…
The year that was!

Wala akong magawa, nababagot ako pero d inaantok… D ako makatulog e…  So i decided to read some of my testimonials and begin to realize the type of person that I have become through these years…  “Have I done enough?”, I asked myself… “Am I what I expected me to be?”…  I started to appreciate myself for what I am…  I am very happy to have friends who appreciates what I do for them…  And realized that maybe, just MAYBE, i am still a worthful fellow…

Haven’t done this for a while now.. Too busy with some academic requirements (thesis, thesis and thesis!)…  And so here goes my random thoughts on random things (feel free to read them randomly…)

Just finished defending my thesis… Whew!  Soon I’ll be a degree holder so watch out world!

I am missing my cellphone…  Life has been so different…  But then again, I can still live without it…

Bcoz I have no cellphone, I am missing some people (are they missing me too?) NEVERMIND!

I am sure they are missing me too… (nyahahaha!)

Life without my cellphone… Sounds like a reality show huh? Well that’s my reality…  And I love these reality shows…

SURVIVOR:  Hurray! The 11th season and I am still a fan of the ‘BIGGEST (and the original) Reality Show on Earth’

AMAZING RACE:  Family Edition? Freakin good!  Hehe.. I love those kids playing the game!

BIG BROTHER:  Yeah what a phenomenon!  At last Pinoy reality fans (like me) get to watch something of their own culture!

Culture?  Do we have that here in our country!  Of course we do!  Although not all are good…  Just like politics here in our country…

Yeah enough of that… And enough of these things…

I just wanna thank Him for the gift of life He gave me!  So be sure to thank Him too…

Peace and I am out!

CHAMPIONS na naman!!!  Sorry PCU but we have to take back what is ours… nyahahaha!  Better luck next time na lang!  Sweet revenge!  Syempre I watched Game 1 hanggang Game 3 LIVE sa araneta!  Saya!  Bringing back the LOST GLORY!!! ARRIBA LETRAN!

Nothing…  This day was just an ordinary day.  I’m still doing my best to be happy (and I am) and to live my life as it is.  Thanks to one person who taught me that.  (You know who you are..)  I’m not mad.  And I know you’re not, too.  I know nothing changed. 

But on the second thought…  Somethings change…  Although it was for the better!  Between me and you?  We both understand what it is…  I know…  We are much stronger than before…  And we will always be…

No matter what…  Thank you…

PS:  Never give up, never give in!  Be proud!  You’re a KNIGHT!  [Good luck Letran!  Hope we win game 3!]